KYON??

Jo hota ,wo hota kyon hai ?
jo nahi hokey hota ,usko
hona hota kyon hai ?

jitney jawab hain ,uss se
shat guna zyada ,sawal kyon hai ?
dhooyein ke gubaar ke peechey
itna bawaal kyon hai ?

koi bahi -khaata ,koi rashiid
zindgaani rakhti hogi ,
hanstey chehrey par bhi
pareshani jhalakti hogi ...

kann sa ye mann sunta
kyon nahi hai ,mann main chidda
ye rann thamta kyon nahi hai ?

soch ke daayrey ke bahar
sach ki kayari kyon hai ?
ek jhooth sau sach pe
bhaari kyon hai ?

gun-gunatey geeton ki boli
ab mann samajhta kyon hai ?
laakh chala kiya main peechey
ye samay aagey sadaiw badhta kyon hai ?

samvedna main bhi vedna kyon hai ?
jarr main bhi chetna kyon hai ?
kaun sunega ?kaun samjhega ?
phir bhi rakt patiil ye hriday ,
itna umarta kyon hai ?

sadiyon se iss KYON ne
sabko hai lubhaya
bhramit kar isne sabko
hai bhatkaya ....

KYON ke peechey mat bhaag
naadani hai .....
surr pakad toh sahi
zindagi ki gazal badi suhani hai ....

CHOORI WAALA .....

Aaj shaam,chaurahey par ,
chai ki garm chuskiyon
ke beech ,achanak se nigahein
kahin ja ke thithak gayin.....

dhoomil si hoti umar ke
uss parao par ,seedhi aati
sadak se ,daayen jaati
uss ghumao par ,ek
choori waala khada tha .....

asthool shareer,safed ,kuch
ugi ,kuch naa ugi dadhiyon
ke beech ,umeed se saji ,
do aankhein,kuch tatol
rahi thi .....

jeehwa choori lelo ,bol
rahi thi ,fefra khokla ho
chala tha,boltey -boltey
wo khaansh ke ,apne seeney
ko khangol raha tha .chasmey
ke bheetar ki ,moti -moti aankhon
se ,wo jag ko naap- tol raha tha ....

neeli,peeli,laal,hari,
khan -khan karti
masti se bhari,har tareh ki
chooriyan thi,bechta tha choori wo,
uski bhi kuch majbooriyan thi .....

aati jaati har sunder haathon
ko tatol kar ,puraani chooriyon
ko khol kar ,nayi chooriyan wo
pehnata tha ,koney main kharey
apne bhookey bacchey ko dekh,wo
sarmata tha ........

chaar ki chai ,ek ki mathhi
bhooki pet ,ban chuki thi bhatti,
do joon ki roti ,sunder gharwaali
ki khooli hui choti ,inko sanjoney
ki ladai main ,uska jeevan kahin kho gaya ,
har ki tarah, main bhi gahr aaya ,chaar
panktiyaan uspe likhi ,aur aur so gaya.......

Duty hours 2.......

Hmmmm........ok chalo finally i give up ,after much of thought i have decided to repeat one of the posts ,i was being persuaded hard enough to share few of my experiences once more ,so finally once again i am here ,well story telling was never the idea behind this blog's germination but sometimes for friends its all worth of....but this time around let's take the look behind that ugly ,money minting face{well this is how people think of us } of your doc....well few of the encounters here are of special interest to my good friend abhishek, or lets be frank and say our interest abhishek......

MOUNTAIN DEW -u can take it from aboral end also !

It was a reagular day at casualty ,screaming ,shouting ,that adrenaline rush gushing thro'ur blood ,i was busy completing all the police cases ,but amidst that crowd i could sense two eyes fixed on me ,i found two men in early 20's standing in the corner looking helplessly at me "haanji kya baat hai ,batao ?" enquired me ,"sir kuch private baat hai ,aap free ho jao we will talk later "came the answer ,well after a couple of hours they again came back to me .....i had no idea what was about to come .....
bolo kya baat hai ?was my question .one of the guy replied "sir for the past two days i was having a upset stomach ,it was very bad ,none of the pills helped me ,so in frustation and anger i decided to close the way out {me eyes were fixed on him ,trying to anticipate whats next ?he continued ,sir plz sun lene gussa mat hona ,i was like yes go ahead ,here came the shocker ....so sir to get rid of all the suffering i closed the way out by a small 'itra'bottle
' ,i was like whatttt!!crap where its now ?he replied it went inside ..."i shouted get the iv fluids ready ,gimme a PR set ...the moment i examined his interiors ,i screamed whom you are trying to befool its a much bigger bottle its not 'itra bottle'speak the truth or we wont be able to help you out ....he stuck to his version ,after stablising his vitals we shifted him for x -ray ....technician brought the x-ray to me in ten minutes with his mouth wide open like ajanta cave ,i asked ,what ?he was like " sir ek baar ye x -ray dekho ,kya hai ye " one look on that and i said man its a cold drink bottle ,and by the outline one can guess its mountain dew ,is this guy nuts ? what the heck he was doing ?i rushed to him and said "this is ur final chance either tell us the truth of face the music "he confessed ...he was a gay and the bottle was his regular pleasure tool ,this time around he messed up ...."yaar itni si baat thi pehle bolna tha ,being a medico we understand its perfectly ok to be what you are ,things are not in ur control ,u r made like this only ,but relax we will fix this bottle mess "

minutes later he violently tried to move ,the bottle perforated his anal canal ,his abdomen was opened in the ER OT ,to take the bottle out APR performed ,he is healthy now ....
{i really want to put a copy of that x-ray here ,but dont want to put that precious and rare treasure to be kept open for grabs on net ,any body wanna have a look let me know }....


Jack and jill went up the hill ,i dont know what they did up there ,but jill came shouting ...."i pill" i pill......

well medically it's a wonder drug for the control of unwanted pregnancy ,but it's the widely abused drug these days ,without knowing the side effects people keep on popping it like a candy and when things go wrong it becomes one's worst nightmare ....
take this into account ,once i had this patient with complaints of weakness ,pain abdomen ,for the last few days ,she was a young educated lady working in a good organisation ,after her check up i found her low on haemoglobin ,i tried to find out the cause of blood loss and the answer in all senses tested my level of calmness ,she had popped 7 i-pill in the last 10 days and which disturbed her hormanl balance so badly that she lost that amount of blood .....needless to ask her about her marital status ,i turned to the dude escorting her or say "ladies man"as few gals like to call jerks like him ,"sir do you know the cause of her ailments ,he replied ,yupp i know call anybody take how much money you want ,but make my girl friend well and take me out of it "i smiled and sarcastically replied boss if you are smart enough to have unprotected sex than you must be smarter enough to fix this out ...{he was an MBA,but he forgot the economics of a 17 rs latex over 90 odd rs i-pill} but i am sure his medical bill that day will help him remember this lifelong ........

Hospital and hospitality

yupp with the sudden surge in the number of corporate hospitals there is a fast growing speculation that whether these place are a place for treatment or money minting hub ,sometimes care takes over cure at these places ....i had this old fellow once in the ER ,in the middle of his treatment he called me up and asked hey doc ,which DEO you use ?i was like sir this is none of your concern ,meet me outside i will tell you all ,but not here .....later i came to know he was a friend of my HOD ,and he reverted back to him with the report that the DOC'S medical expertise were good {touch wood !}but with his sharp cut cotton pants and razor sharp crew cut hair ,he should be more open and personal with the patients ,this will take that lad to places...well i am still confused when did they taught me in medical school to share my personal life with patient.......all that i have learnt is the cure and affection ......


There are endless stories which could find its place here ,but i cant go on blah ..blah...blah....legends are numerous in the practice of medicine ....but its time again to say sayonara ...thankx to the rare leisure i get during my night shifts i am able to finish this post ....good or bad i dont know ,even if its pathetic who cares .....for more lets meet over a beer ....
cheers ....hic ! hic!

Duty hours .....

It's been couple of months since my last post ,well after much of thought ,today i pounced upon an interesting idea of sharing something again with you all.....well its the compilation of my encounters over the last few months with few people who've taken my thought for a ride ,few pleasent few utterly dustbin stuff ,but as they say nothing here is bad ,like what's a congestion in a train becomes atmosphere in the pub.....

January 1st 2010
7.00 am ,FHVK

First morning of this new year has just knocked on ,what a chilly day that was!hard to even feel the warmth in once breath ,entire delhi was sleeping ,i am sure after partying hard ,but there was a place which was gushing with activities of all sort,one could hear the malyali chit chats along all the nursing boards of FHVK ,passing on information over to the next batch of staff ,in the long corridors all the house keeping guys were busy applying the shining wax on the already glaring floors ,after all presentation is the key !!i looked at my watch it was already 7.30 and was time for me to take all the willy old foxes of medicine for the morning rounds ,but addicted me, i sneaked out for a couple of minutes to wash my eyes with that dirty smoke ,well excuse or whatever but after that marathon night duty i needed that ,why marathon? that's some other time ......

7.38 am-stage all set ,all the morning duty residents were also ready for the rounds but before we could excahnge greetings here came Dr.paul in his late 50's dr.paul is a man of few words ,but he commands respect where ever he goes for us fear also plays a part in that ,so we residents exchanged greetings by just looking at each other ....{did i hear somebody say ,body language ,well i would say fear factor }...we headed towards room no .102 ,patient name -rajinder dhingra ,diagnosis -hepatitis C ,stage and prognosis -uncurable ....we entered into his room and dr.paul in his typical punjabi accent spoke "good morning and a very happy new year mr.rajinder ,that old man with all his guts summed up a broad smile on his face and replied thankx sir and i am sure it will be a very happy new year for me as i am sure i will be able to overcome all these nerve wrecking pain this year "well what a reply from a man who has just signed his end of life form "that's do not try to put me on life support system if i bid bye form"well i looked up at him and thought well this is being positive at its best ,you know what is looming large and yet you are taking chances ....
Mr.rajinder is no more today but his last few words will always echo in my ears ,move over all inspirational books ,life it self is biggest insipration....

January 4th ,2010
4.30 pm
i was going thro the ABG reports of one of the ILD pateints ,my phone started to ring ,it was Dr. adit on the other side he said"rohit u r required in the A3 ward STATi.e shake that ass toothsie....i made my way to that ward ,it was javed ....bed no.101.1,diagnosis -blind since last four years,cause-traumatic,prognosis -entire life in darkness. i have brought him from the medical camp of indian blind association last day he sufferd colle's fracture while playing blind football tournament there,but he was ready to be addmitted on only one promise that i will give him the news of his team winning the cup ,and today was the final, it was time i needed to fulfill my promise ...he instantly recognised me by the fragnance of my deo ,javed asked "sir kya hua ?i said sorry yaar tumhari team haar gayi ,he replied back ,main jo nahi tha ! next year sir aap phir aana ,main jeetunga ,zindagi main har baar jeetna jaroori nahi hota ....but his dark eyes couldn't hide the tears in his eyes .....
javed is well today ,practising football,singing songs with friends ,making wax candles and lighting up others life ....

January 20th,2010
midnight
SOS call from B1 ward ,it was room number 222,patient -R.K singh ,diagnosis -periampullary CA ,last stage ,EX MP gov of India 1972,he was gasping for breath ,i shouted back put him on oxygen 4 litres fast ,nebulise him and give cortisone 200 mg ,after few minutes of frantic orders and treatments he became stable ,well for some time though....mr.singh was there in the hospital for last one month and being politically inclined i used to have a long chat with him ,during one of those chats he once said "listen dr'not even angels are greater than the man who went on to wrong path and came back ,so no matter what happens one can always fetch the greatness...."great words from a great man himself ....

He went away silently next day ....i was not on duty ...

February 2nd ,2010
ER room ,some time in the early morning
my over night pateint latika has just come into her senses ,and greeted us with her repenting scream..miss latika ahuja ,suffring from acute alcohol intoxication ,she was brought by couple of her friends from her office party ,she was a software engineer ....but as they came to know it will be a police case ,and that too a formal one with no hassles guarenteed ,they ran away ....some how we found her parent's number in her cell and informed them,they were on their way .....well the question is why miss latika screamed it was not the fear that she has done something wrong ,she was a regular boozer at office Do's ,a regular morality preacher to other fellows who didnt know her ,but this time it was the fear of being exposed in front of her parent's made her scream .....i looked at her and thought ,huhh strange world ,there are people who are suffering ,because of no faults their own ,we as a doctor can only summarise those ailments in couple of words ,and on the other side there are people like latika ,and all of us ,who screw up our life by our own hands and want god to untangle it .....do we really need to always ask for more ?or we should just always be content of what god has given us and say thank you almighty ....take your pick ........


February 21st
9.30 pm ,me signing off with a special note that all the names of patients are not real name ,remember i am a doctor under oath of secrecy .....

DIVIDED WE STAND !!!!

yes thats the way i find things in our beloved country at the moment ....everybody is singing his or her own tune and the resultant melody is just like, out of sink orchestra .last night government decided to gift us a new state of TELANGANA,well congrats to a certain MR. KCR and all those who were twisting the arms of governments over the decades ...well with due respect to all those who beleived in this cause i just want to ask, what you guys will get out of it ?you will still be a part of this country ,the same rule of land will be applicable to you,the same system of administration will dictate terms to u ,and moreover you guys will be the same person residing at the same place ,so when everything will be same then why all this ruckus ...but if things get better for you guys then congrats !but going by the previous experiences things look murkier except for few politicians ....dont u guys remember the allegations against mr.koda ,the ex jharkhand cm ....well now lets take a look how and why this new developement took place ,though i am not an expert but i am equally entitled to have an opinion as a nationalist.

oppurtunist politics

yes after the death of YSR there was a lacuna in andhra politics ,YSR was equally loved in the entire andhra ,so after his death the self centerd politicians started sniffing a bigger role for themselve ,KCR was quick to blow his old telangana slogan but this time he took the gandhian way ,and his supporters the opposite way,adding fuel to the fire was opposition BJP,which after being cornered on the babri report,was looking for some distraction ,they openly came out in support of KCR ,poor bjp and KCR they forgot that when they were in power at the centre they have also ignored the telangana cause ,if they were so concerened telangana would have been a new state six years back only ,and same applies to last five years of congress rule also when they took support of KCR ,so the point is telangana people should realise its not the welfare its the politics which forms the crux ..a party who has recently lost its tallest of leader ,was not in the mood to resist and loose its vote bank ,as soon as PM landed in country they said "YES"

power

KCR gave his entire life to the telangana cause ,but he never became the leader which he would have wanted to ,he bacame part of NDA ,later on UPA ,but he never got his dues ,probably this was his final shot at glory ,its as clear as water that one politician which will have maximum benefit is the man himself ,well one can claim there will be an election ,yes there will be and its sure people will only vote for that person who has given them this statehood ....so its a win win situation for him....i am not at all against any politician i am against the reasons which they give for the division of country .....

now lets look into the few facts ,ours is a panchayti raj sytem ,which means that there is decentralisation of power ,it goes from bottom to top ,the country is divided into states,and states into districts,sub divisions,blocks ,villages and panchayats,and at each of these points there are government repersentatives in various forms ,be it DM'S,BDO'S etc,there primary job is to make the pacakages of government available to everybody ,but if some people who speaks the same language still demand seperation on the basis of neglect ,poverty then its a collective failure of the system ,and to be specefic we all are the part of system ,so nothing will change even if every district is given statehood ,honesty at each level is the only solution not the division in each of the exsisting states.....

i would just like to add in my concluding statement that ,this creation of new state at this time will have dangerous impact,now we will soon be hearing the intense demands of a certain ,HARIT PRADESH,PURVANCHAL,BUNDELKHAND,MITHILANCHAL,VIDHARBA,BODOLAND ,GORKHA LAND,KOORG or many more ....one should think about giving our future generation united india,not that india where after every kilometer there awaits a new state ,a state of chaos ........

Let's Get Started.........

Jeevan path sadiyon se,
raha kara ek oomang,
sirf raastey miltey ,
kabhi cahurey ,kabhi tang .....

hahakaar hai ,chittkaar hai ,
yeh insaan ka,insaan se,
kaisa vyabhachaar hai ?......

har chauraha iss jag main ,
jaam sa kyon hai ? ,
maanav tu itna ,
badnaam sa kyon hai ?.....

roz subeh ,akhbaar ,khoon main sana aata hai,
vichlit toh ho jaata hi hai man,
ke kahin kho gaya hai aman ,,,,,,,

aaj bhi ,vediyon pe jalti hain betiyaan ,
sasti hai ,tere mere shareer ki boti ,
kintu ,mehngi hai do waqt ki roti .......

aaj behta hai ,khoon sadkon pe,
toh usme rawaani ,kahan se hogi ?,
jab loot jata hai bachpan ,
toh insaan main jawaani kahan se hogi ......

bhramit mann bola karey ,
ishwar basta hai mann main,
phir paakhandi sa bann,
dhoonda karta maanav ussey kann kann main......

ek baar phir ,raam aatey ,
raheem aatey,magar ,
gardish main parey iss jag ko dekh,
shayad wo bhi hain sharmaatey .......

deir bahut ho gayi ,
magar shayad ,baat ban jaaey ,
chalo ,ek koshish sab mil kartey hain,
ho sakey phir se sab kuch salona ban jaaey............

Obituary to YSR........

Its 1 10 am in the morning ,I arrived at my apartment only twenty minutes back and the moment I reached home ,my room partner broke the news that YSR is no more , my heart sank ,I became speechless, well I am not a congress worker or a political activist but he was amongst the one of the most efficient chief ministers according to me ,I am, and will be his fan forever .... after going through the rituals of taking shower and puffing a fag I thought of writing about this rare breed of politician ,coz if not today ,and if not for him, then me writing blog would be useless,honestly ,confessing I started writing blog just to let somebody know me better ,how foolish of me ,but today I am writing for me only ,probably this is my most quickest of blog entry only separated by less than 24hrs ......

Ysr or dr rajshekhar reddy was born in 1949 in Andhra Pradesh ,he completed his graduation in medicine and won an election first time at the age of 29,probably after B C ROY ,he s the LAST most adorable doctor CM, he was in politics for the last ,to be very precise 31 years,he was hand picked by late Mr rajeev Gandhi another adorable leader for me ,he became PCC president twice but YSR came into news in 2004 when after his famous pad yaatra he broke the castle of naidu ,shrewd politician he was ,he learnt from his predecessors like NTR and naidu, and did the most smartest of thing by earning the money for state, like naidu and spending it like NTR , which naidu forgot and YSR was wise enough to cash on by concentrating on rural Andhra contrary to naidu ..... soon he was regarded as the leader of masses and Andhra started to flourish under him ,thankx to my bhaiya I keep on visiting Andhra quite often and I am really impressed to see the development there particularly in villages ,being a doctor I keep on reading the various journals,praising YSR'S various health policies ,and other socio-medico-economic schemes,how well implemented his policies are in AP at the moment ...

well a true leader of masses he was,he belived in work being spoken about, not the back door politics ,that's why he was amongst the selected breed of politician in the congress culture ,who was given free hand while selecting candidates for the recent LS polls ,and yeah son of the soil he was,he gave the results which shocked every one but not him .... He was a very self confident man,I remember one interview of him with shekhar gupta of Indian express ,where mr gupta jokingly tells him "dr reddy I have just conducted an interview with mr chandrababu and he remarked well his padyaatra was successful because rains didn't interrupt him and in this year I am also not being interrupted by rain ,so hopefully we will win"YSR casually replied "ohhh rains will surely come" ironically rains came and it came to took him away in a chopper crash ,attributed mainly to hostile rainy weather ,I just have only one question why ?why only good men die untimely death?why only true people are subjected to so many tests ?may the souls of YSR and four others who lost their lives in this crash rest in peace ......